WooHoo!  I got a call back from one of the nursing homes that I put my app in at!  Finally got a job!  It's about damn time too!  Not full time but it'll work.  I don't want to work all the damn time any frickin way!  Only enough to get some bills caught up.  God this will be so nice to finally be bringing in a paycheck again.  I am so tired of being broke.  Even more tired to be livin so close to the pjs.  People here are so fuckin loud omg!  These damn kids are drivin me nuts! 

     Jay called on a couple more houses tonight.  One might be already taken.  He said that he had a guy supposed to be comin to pay the down payment on it.  I guess the guy said like that like 4 days ago so the owner don't know if he's comin or not.  I wish he wouldn't!  I would LOVE to have this house!  OMG it's gorgeous!  It has a HUGE ass deck on the back with a biig fenced in yard.  It's only a 2 bedroom but Leland sleeps with us anyway so that's not a big deal.  Hell Alex doesn't even sleep in her room.  She sleeps on the couch and then when she wakes up in the nights she ends up in our room by the bed on the floor.  She's hopeless!

     Weigh In today sucked!  I gained a pound .  I think it's due to stress.  How frustrating!  I know that getting this job will have me on my feet more which means more excercise!  I really wish this would come off faster.  I know all good things take time.  Kinda like my ex.  He IMd me like crazy tonight.  Telling me how he still thinks about me and blah blah.  Confusing me to no end.  I wish all the time that things had gone down differently between us.  I know there are people laughin their butts off now, but I do still care about him.  I suppose I always will.  Everytime I look at my son I see him.  He looks so much like him it's not funny.  Their chubby cheeks and crooked smiles.  And the eyes!  OMG the eyes are so mysterious.  He's got his daddys eyes that's for sure!  No denying it once you've seen the eyes.  I love my son so much.  I know his daddy thinks I used him to get a baby but honostly Leland was a BIG surprise and wasn't wanted at all.  Those of you that read my blog thru my pregnancy know how unbelievable it is for him to think that.  If he read them, he'd know there was no way I would have put myself thru all of that just to get a baby.  I didn't want a baby but the first time I seen him on ultrasound and heard his heart beat (at 26 weeks) I knew I loved him, and couldn't give him up no matter what.  I'm glad I made that choice now, for my life would not have been made complete without him, or his father.  One day I hope his dad will make things right, but if all we ever stay is friends.  I'm happy with that.  As long as my son is happy and loved, and his daddy is happy, I'm happy. 

     That's all for now bloggers.  I'll be back to fill you in on my job interview tomorrow!!!  Good night!