First of all I want to say that I hope you all have a safe and blessed Easter weekend!  Ours is not supposed to be very warm .  I guess we should have expected that with the way the weather has been of late.  Sucks but we'll get passed it.  It's got to warm up sometime!  We have a pretty big weekend planned.  Kids are going to a egg hunt over at the college tomorrow morning.  Then we are planning a big hunt/dinner at the inlaws for Sunday.  Not big church goers here.  I am usualy in the habit of going at least on Easter but given my new world faith now a days I don't think it's very appropriate.  Besides I can pray anywhere right?

Now on to the more dissapointing news .  I've done a bit of soul searching the past few days and I think it's safe to say that I've come to a rather important decision.  I'm not a horrible mother, or wife, or person in general.  I'm not a horrible housekeeper or anything like that.  But boy do I sure have my issues with it when I have a computer in this house.  I just can't do it anymore.  Unfortunatly that means that yes, I'll have to go back to using the library computer to check up on all my girls (and some guys ) but I'm going crazy.  I was doing very well beating my insomnia before I got this darn thing.  I was sleeping reselessly but sleeping none the less.  I spent infinate amounts of time with my kids and my house was always spotless !  I used to pride myself, and bragged quite regularly, how clean I always keep my house.  No it's pretty much gone to Hades .  If there is one thing I cannot stand it's a dirty house !  I was just in the bedroom and seen clean clothes still in the hamper from 4 days ago!  Can you believe that shit?  I am disgusted with myself !  This is completely unlike me.  It's like my life here online is more important than cleaning my house or spending time with my kids.  I'll say it's not any where near as hard to tear me off of it as it used to be but it's still not good .  I hate treating my kids this way.  I'm tired of being awake for days on end as well!  That's for sure!  If I ever hope to lose weight, I have got to start getting a good nights sleep!  This is ridiculous!  I'll go 2-3 days without sleep!  It's nuts . 

     So I have come to the decision that for the benefit of my kids, and me as well, I'm going to relinquish my computer and my internet at the end of this week.  Probably today .  I am sorry to have to do this, as I have great friends on here.  However, right now, at this point in my life, I feel it is the only way to make things work and better for my family .  My kids are my life and right now, I'm not treating them very well .  I have many goals set out for myself over the course of this year, as well as many goals for each month.  I am going to start reaching and acheiving those goals starting with Aprils list.  March is almost done so it would be imprudent I believe to start with March.  We'll skip ahead to April and wipe a clean slate.   I have many friends with who I would love to keep up a penpal with!  Also I will be posting still via the internet.  I am not sure exactly how often I'll be posting, but every Monday for sure!  That is my official WI day so I'll def be on then!  I also have to keep track of the National Woman Challenge and post on there regular when it kicks off on Mothers Day this year.  For more info click here------> http://www.4women.gov/woman/index.cfm  A friend and I are going to start a team.  I am hoping to gather a few more members before the official registration sometime next month.  I'm super excited about it!  

     Anywho- I guess that's about it for right now !  I'll be back later to post again I'm sure!  If I'm not, then make a note that I'll be checking in on my blog on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays!  Hope to see ya'll then!!!