Today I got a surprise.  Had an a-ha moment you might call it.  We decided to take the kids to the park to play early this afternoon.  While driving down Market St., it dawned on me that I was supposed to pick up my first paycheck yesterday.  Only working part time I never see anyone enough to remember these important things.  So it was a pleasant surprise to say the least!  I wish it was going to be for more money, but first paychecks always did suck.  I think it should be for about $50.  Woohoo right?  Well that's gas money for us!  I'm happy with that.  When I went in to pick it up though, I was hit with another realization.  I forgot I can only pick them up after 2pm so I have a little wait, since it's only like 11 right now.  I think I can wait a couple more hours though   Jayson wants to go look for cars today when we put some gas in the car.  I can't say as I'm thrilled about that notion but it's better than sitting at home all day.  Which btw, I detest doing. 

     We are sitting at the inlaws now as I type this waiting on Jayson to make some phone calls.  He's calling on a few houses that we seen the other day.  Ok, so he just came back outside and told me that he had to leave messages because no one answered.  Which is not unusual being a weekday in mid-afternoon.  So we ended up down at the river front park.  Watching the water flow by.  For some reason it seemed warmer out when we were at our house.  Now it seems a tad cool.  Probably because we are so close to the river now.  It always did seem cooler down here.  Especially in the summer.  This is where everyone flocks to cool off from the incredibly hot nights.  Oh if only....I miss those nights so much   I cannot stand the cold weather.  I must tell Jayson 3 times a day at least that we need to move to a warmer climate.  It's the truth.  Hannibal itself is a very dirty town.  I hate river towns.  They are full of salt smelling air.  Actually smells more like mud than salt.  Either way.  Jayson is over playing soccer with Alex right now.  A "well to do" family just pulled up in there $70,000 SUV with their little girl.  Now Jay has to act like he's a man of their stamp.  Riiight...us sitting here in our hoopty '89 Grand Marquis.  Ya we're right up there.  I don't even waste my time making small talk with people like that.  Yet, he talks their ear off like we're not living off of their tax dollars in food stamps LMFAO!!

     A lot of you know by know that I was raised in South Dakota.  Now after a LOOONG winter up north, if it got this warm out up there we'd be in tank tops and short shorts today.  Now that I'm in Mid Mo I'm freezin my catooshy off.  It's like 58 or so outside and to me it's COLD!  I have my usual jeans/tshirt/jean jacket combo on, and I'm thinking I should have worn a hoodie under this jacket. BRRR!  Today could very well be the day when I shut off my internet.   I keep piddling around about it.  Everyday that goes by I find myself wishing I didn't have it.  I find the dishes pilling up, the laundry pilling up, the family falling apart.  The trash filling up the can, the kids whinning cause they are bored, and their mama would much rather be sitting on the puter than playing with them.  I know it's the horrible truth of my life right?  I hate it.  So if you haven't guessed by now, I've decided to cancel my net and stop paying my $200 a month payment on my pc.  YES $200!  That's dell for ya lol.  I pay $200 a month for this computer.  That's yet another reason I can't afford to keep myself online.  It comes down to straight dollars and cents.  We can't afford it so it's got to go.  Our kids need clothes and we need a better house, and car, and several other things that we could do with that $200 a month right?  I know I have access to the library internet here in town.  I can always log on there and blog.  I can get on my usual websites and keep everyone up to date with whats going on.  Maybe closer to the end of summer, I'll feel in a better spot financialy to get internet again and a simpler computer.  Jayson is going to let me get a new camera this month so my only regret is that I won't be able to show you all the great summer pics on our vacations that we'll be taking.  *sigh*  And that's just life for you. 

     Leland is in the back seat wishing he could run and play with the kids in the park.  I feel bad for him.  I wish he'd start walkin already   Then he could run and play.  I know that would just make his day!  Probably his whole month! LOL!  So anywho - my main reason for bringing my laptop with me was to type this up so I wouldn't get yelled at my "certain people" - you know who you are- for not having a blog entry today.  Apparently my life is that interesting huh?  Ok, so I'm going to get Leland up here and change his booty.  Kinda gettin stinky.  LOL!  Then I suppose I'll take him out so he can scream to his hearts content at the other kids.  Just must be a baby thing They are always screaming at whatever it is they like.  You should see him when a dog comes within 100 yards of him   So that's all for now bloggers!  If I don't have a entry for tomorrow - chances are I've shut my service off.  I hope you'll continue to check in on me thru out the summer!!  I'll be around to check on all of you that have blogs.  (((hugs)))

*In a side note - Jay was just outside smokin when who did he see walk by?  My BIL and his EX GIRLFRIEND!!!  The one whos ass I beat on Easter!   I cannot believe he would consider getting back with her after that!  GRRR!  I hope he knows that Jay & I want nothing further to do with her after that little stunt!  I'll whoop that bitch in her ass again!  I am so pissed right now!  OMG!  Some people just have NO class.  I mean this man can do so much better!  To make matters worse, the whole reason that she kicked him out was because he wanted to trade his van in for a truck.  Well the day after they split, he did just that.  The only reason I can think of that she is calling him non stop beggin him back is because guess what next week is?  Payday!  Oh ya, her bills are due and she now has noone to pay them.  DUH DAVID YOU SHIT FOR BRAINS!  I can't believe he would fall for that shit!  GRRR!  Sorry peeps, I'm gonna be stuck on this for a bit!  That just makes me so mad I can't even see straight right now.  The nerve of that bitch .  Ok I'm going to take a pill lol and then I'll be all better !  Talk to ya'll later!