I feel like an ass!  I took Alex to the bathroom at Walmart last night.  While she was in the stall, I walked all around that bathroom, quickly getting bored.  After about 5 mins or so a girl younger than me walked out of a stall and washed her hands.  She walked over to throw her paper towel away and asked if "that was mine".  I was like, "huh?".  I looked down and she was pointing to some folded up money.  I figured, "it's a dollar..why lie about it?".  I could have said it was mine but why bother over a dollar?  So I told her it wasnt.  She bent down to pick it up, even voicing out loud that it was just a dollar anyway.  She unfolded it and OMG!!!  IT WAS A $100 DOLLAR BILL!!! I about shit myself!  She asked if she should turn it in or keep it?  I was like ,"are you fucking kidding me?"  I told her exactly what I'd do with it.  Pocket that shit and walk off like no ones business.  Well she laughed and that's exactly what she did!  I shouldn't have told Jay but I did...imagine his reaction.  "YOU DID WHAT?!?"  Yep I sure did.  I walked all over that $100 and never seen it laying there on the floor.  Then I actualy admitted it wasn't mine and let her walk off with $100 bucks!  GRRR!  Never in my life has something like that happened to me!  The one time it does, I give it away.  Sigh..maybe something good will come out of it.  I felt bad because how would I feel if I lost 100 bucks?  KWIM?  I would be frantic, praying to God that someone turned it in.  But of course, that was all an after thought.  And no, it wouldn't have stopped me from putting it in my pocket and walking out with it..I know I'm a terrible person..or just honost..TOO damn honost after last night!

     Girl Scout cookies came in yesterday.  Mmmm they were so good!  I know I shouldn't have but I couldn't help myself!  I mean THIN MINTS?  Are you nuts?!  Then dh bought me a chicken sandwich w/ fries from BK!!  I could have strangled him for about 5 mins.  Then it was "down the hatch"! LOL!  I sat here on the couch this morning, watching a Shania Twain video wishing to GOD I'd  have a body like that someday.  Hell I'd settle for a Gretchen Wilson body!  Hell I'd settle for a Kirsty Alley body at this point! LOL!  I need to get my head out of my ass and start focusing on the LONG TERM here!  I know I'm not going to be a size 4 by June or even August...but maybe if I focus, I could be a size 12 by next winter   That would make me superbly happy!  Deliriously happy actually!  I just keep focusing in on what next week holds in the way of weight loss, I need to start thinking about what I want to look like next year!  Jay paid almost $50 to get me on WW now I need to put that money to good use.  That doesn't even include all the money he spent the other day at the grocery store on WW food lol!  Then to turn around and blow all my hard made efforts on a damn chicken sandwich and some nasty ass fries (they really weren't that good)?  Grr!  Honostly the thing didn't even taste that good.  Maybe because I knew I was breaking the rules.  It made my stomach hurt really.  I started getting a mondo headache within an hour of finishing it.  I think it was all the fat in that meal.  I haven't had that much junk in over a week.  That's it!  From this day on, no more fast food!  I'm done with the junk! 

     DH looked at the treadmill online last night that I want to get and I think I have him talked into it.  He let me spend $30 on a pedometer the other day (supposed to be delivered Monday!!) so might as well get a treadmill too huh?  Next it's the "turbo jam" dvd work out set.  I won't push my luck too far though so soon after a pricey purchase.  He's convinced I'll never use the pedometer but I mean I don't HAVE to USE it persay.  Just strap it on every morning and go really.  I just want a conveniant way to keep track of my steps so I can calculate my activity points on WW.com.  The one I ordered comes with a USB cable to hook into my pc and a disk with a built in program.  Apparently it will give me a detailed tracker of my steps each day.  How cool is that?  Worth $30 in my opinion.  I can't wait to get it and put it to the test.  Supposed to be 99% accurate.  I got a cheap one for free a couple years back when McDs brought out their new salads.  It was a POS and didn't track worth a damn.  Bigger people, like myself, have a hard time getting just any old pedometer to work because you usualy have to strap it to your waist.  Well...on bigger girls our flab cushions the impact of our steps hitting the ground so the pedometer won't read it as a step.  So then we're resorted to putting it on the side of our show which jossles it too much and ends up counting 15 steps for every 1.  This one I am getting advertises that you can put it in your backpack, waste, pocket, whatever and it's guaranteed.  So we'll see!

     Tomorrow, I'm going to put my app in at this nursing home across town I've been bugging about for weeks.  They are still hiring apparently, which is kinda scary.  I will get the job because I have never walked in any place to apply for a job and walked out without one.  Call it my charisma lol!  With 7 years experiance they tend to jump on it.  Especially if they are that desperate.  I NEED a job and they NEED employees.  Keeping my fingers crossed!  It would def be nice to have the extra income coming in that's for sure!  Plus it would give me some added excercise everyday.  That I could always use!  I want to get the 11-7 position.  I'm such a night owl anyway.  It will be harder on DH to take care of the kids all day.  Especially since he plans to keep working 7-3 at the cab company.  We don't trust anyone to babysit our kids.  Not even the inlaws.  They are the LAST people I would want babysitting.  I have no idea how we are going to work this out.  Maybe he'll go to just weekends or something.  He's picking up two extra days this week just trying to keep the ends together this month.  Lord knows they probably won't get tied but as long as we can keep them together we'll be alright!  Me getting a job would help out 110%!  I can make twice what he does in a paycheck.  We've already decided that we'll continue to use his checks to pay bills and we'll use mine to save and get household stuff.  Like the kids is needing some new summer clothes that's for sure!  Bub is already grown out of damn near everything we bought him in February!  That was 6-9 mos clothes!  So he def needs more.  Alex shows off a bit too much leg in her shorts from last summer so we may need to get some more.  We was walking thru Pennys the other day and they had a kick ass sale going on, on kids clothes and I told Jay I need to get a job so my kids can be flossin!

     That's it for now bloggers!  Off to visit my girls blogs on FIT!  muah!