Is is to late to get an annulment?!  Jayson is absolutely driving me nuts today!  All he's wanted to do all day is sleep.  Alex has been back here in the bedroom with me playing all day trying to stay quiet for him to sleep.  Every once in awhile she would sneak out to the living room and try to engage her father to play with her.  His response was to yell at her and tell her to leave him alone because he was trying to sleep!  Then supper time came and he was determined to make spaghetti.  Normally I wouldn't care but tonight I just wasnt' feeling like going thru all that drama for supper.  I suggested sloppy joes instead with tator tots.  Something quick and easy for supper.  He reluctantly agreed.  So we basically wasted an entire pan of sloppy joe and an entire bag of tater tots because when we sat down to eat, I'm the only one who ate.  He ate 3 bites and started saying he was full.  Well of course at that point you know that Alex had to follow suit.  So she ate maybe 5 bites.  I was so pissed!  It's not like we don't struggle every month to feed ourselves and for all that food to go to waste.  I put the sloppy joe meat in the fridge but it will never get eat because Jayson has an eversion to eating left overs.  I'm the only one who'll eat them and I won't eat all of that!  The other it was pointless to save, because I'm certainly not fixing to reheat tater tots! YUCK! 

     As soon as dinner was over I washed dishes and cleaned up the whole mess by myself.  I was quite frankly incredibly tired of Jayson pacing and moping around the house like a lost puppy.  I told him to go away and that Alex and I would clean everything up as usual.  After we finished I got her in the bath early so I could get in as well.  Having an OB appnt. tomorrow, I certainly wanted to make sure I would be smelling rain shower fresh! LOL!  So he came in bitching that I was giving her a bath too early!  Like it matters!  I'm the one doing it.  They he got even more pissed off that I was putting her in her pajamas this early (around 6:30).  Ya know what?  She's 4!  Most experts recommend that children her age be in bed by then lol!!!  I certainly wasn't hurting anything by giving her a bath that early.  I also mentioned that I thought she needed to be in bed by 8 seeing as we have to get up so early in the morning for the docs office.  He about passed out at the mear mention of going to sleep so early.  Then all he does is bitch that all there is to do is watch TV!!  It's like damn it!!  You can't have everything you want.  Yes, I sit on my computer because I enjoy it and it keeps me occupied.  Being that I've had to quit smoking and drinking for the past 8 months, I'm damn glad that I've had SOMETHING to keep my self occupied and sane during that time!  He could very easily find something on TV to watch.  Alex has just been so spoiled.  We basicaly let her watch cartoons all day long (or whenever she wants) and she is not liking to adjust to watching other things. 

     I hurt so bad all day long with my thighs and hip joints that all I can basically do is relax.  Too much strain on my body and I am in serious pain for the whole night.  Enough so that I probably won't sleep.  It's bad enough that today for some reason my entire left hip is acting up and I can barely sit for 10 minutes at a time!  Then to have to listen to that all day long.  When I told Jayson that he could have at least attempted to entertain his daughter today, he proceeded to say that I could have just as easily.  I DID keep her occupied with as much as I could.  I can't be as physicaly active as she would like.  I can't stand and fish with her for hours (or minutes lol).  I can't walk around the park with her while she rides her bike.  I can barely manage to give her a bath, as the bending over literally bruises my stomach.  Doc has recommended that I take it easy so as not to give birth too early.  Well damn it I'm trying!  Jayson could have taken her to the park today.  He could have taken her outside to hit her ball around or play catch.  He just has seemed so strange today for some reason.  It's not like him to sit and sleep all day.  It's not like him to have an aversion to working like he has had here lately.  He virtually turned into a scam artist.  He goes and hussles up jobs to make extra money and then after they pay him he won't finish the job.  He made $50 last week sanding and priming this old stair case for the maintance guy in our complex.  He got all the sanding done (which honostly was worth the $50 alone) and half the painting but after he got one side of it primed he decided to collect his pay with the promise that he would return the next day.  Guess what?  That was a week and a half ago!  I have no idea what to do with him honostly.  He has never been like this before.  I'm scared that it's going to become permanent!

     Well guys,  I think I've bended your ear enough for tonight on the woes of being me lol!  I hope I haven't bored you all too much!  More tomorrow....

 So how are we all doing today?  I slept in this morning and didn't wake up until around 11:30!  Then again I was up until roughly 2am!  I can't believe I stayed up that long.  Getting caught up on everything I guess.  Baby is doing well today.  Hasn't really been that active, but then I'm sure he just doesn't have much room to be active in lol!  I already know he's going to be a big baby.  I've had dreams about him, and the baby in my dream is a chubby little bald thing lol!  I can't wait to see him.  I know Alex is absolutely beside herself with waiting to see her new baby brother.  As far as purchases go, we are doing pretty well.  Still need some basic stuff like bottles and diapers, but for the most part we're good.

     My gma bought us a load of clothes this month.  I think she said she spent somewhere around $100 just on onesies and so forth!  I can't believe she spent that much!  Hell Jayson and I can only bring ourselves to spend $30 at a time lol!  The way these past few months have just been flying I can imagine how quickly this one will go.  Of course, it seems like every year June is the longest month!  I don't know how slow it will go this year seeing as how I'm due next month!  It will probably fly by I'm sure.  I'm going in to see the doc once a week now instead of every two weeks.  He said he can induce me any time after 38 weeks.  Well on Monday I'll be 35 so we are certainly getting down to it!  Little Leland will be here before we know it.  After 8 months of waiting it doesn't hardly seem possible that it's getting right down to the wire now!  Roughly 3 weeks left.  Apparently (according to doc) my cervix is ready to go now but he wants to hold off as long as possible.  With all these contracs I've been having, I can safely say I doubt I'll make it the next 3 weeks.  But we'll see!

     Well bloggers, I guess I should hit the boards and do some blog surfing to catch up with all of you and of course to generate the flow of traffic back to my blog!  Hope to talk to ya'll soon!