My gma told me a interesting piece of info today.  We were on the subject of my mother.  One that comes up fairly often in her house.  Summer before last Jay and I made a trip to SD to see the fam over 4th of July.  We called ahead and made plans to do so.  We didn't just show up on my mothers doorstep.  We also stayed in a hotel the whole time and never expected her to entertain us or house us.  My grandpa and Aunt, neither of whom I'd seen in at least 10 yrs were there visiting as well.  My mother iformed us of this over the phone.  This information actually helped fuel our determination to get up there!  Well, when my grandma and I were on that topic today she mentioned a convo that my mother and her had that weekend.  She (my mother) apparently called down here and wanted my grandma to "talk us out of coming".  When she was questioned about this, my mom answered plainly that they didn't really want us up there!  Now isn't THAT nice?  I thought so!  And seeing how my grandpa died 2 mos after that on Labor Day, I would have forever regretted it had we not gone!  So regardless of what my mother may or may not have said, I'm glad we did go.

 

     I called my mom Wednesday night to see how things were going.  She was in a "meeting" (NA) and wouldn't be home until around 10pm, so I was informed by my sister.  So I called about around 10:30 only to be told she was in bed and would call Thursday evening.  Well not surprisingly, she never did.  I got Alex all excited to talk to her and she never called.  So as of now, I'm washing my hands of my entire family.  If they want to contact me they know where I'm at.  Maybe 5-10 years down the road they'll wake up and say "Hey, didn't I have an older daughter?".  It made me so crazy mad this afternoon to hear what she had said.  I can't believe the woman is so stuck on vanity that she doesn't even acknowledge that she's a grandmother to my children.  Pisses me off!  So I've decided that I'm not calling or sending her anymore letters.  I'm thru. 

 

     So Jay and I are playing around with the idea of moving to S.Illinois.  I went to school there for several years and it's an excellent system.  I think the move would do us good.  I know his parents would have a fit but they'd get over it eventualy.  We have to opportunity to live in their house after they move out in Dec. but I'm not going to allow my child to go to Hannibal public school.  I don't want her to get caught up in all the drama that is Hannibal, the 2nd major town in Mizzou for meth production.  I guess we'll talk more about the move when it gets closer to school getting out for the summer.