Well here I am again....wasting away in front of the computer, while the rest of the world sleeps around me.  This clock is off by a few minutes.  It's actually 5:09am here right now.  Honostly, I'm not even tired.  I do have a lot on my mind right now that I can't seem to get sorted out.  I'm stressin about payday, about having to move, about my new job, about my weight...just a lot of things.  I can't seem to sleep at night no matter how hard I try.  Even when I DO get off the pc I usually end up in front to the tv for hours on end.  So I'm always burning some form of energy lol! 

     Well tomorrow is the big "D" day.  I'm starting my detox diet.  It's the first phase of the South Beach Diet.  Basicaly I cut out all carbs and sugars for 14 days.  After that 14 days is up, then I'll start WW.  I'll also start working out at that time.  I'm also going to start back on my Leptopril to see if any of this will kick start my weight loss.  I know WHAT to do and HOW to do it.  It's just a matter of will power and making myself DO IT!  I know I have to drink more water.  I know I have to cut back on my salt.  I know I need to eat at least 1200 calories a day to keep my metabolism up.  I know I need to incorporate some kind of excercise into my daily life.  Whether that just be a nice brisk walk around town or a thorough cleaning of my house, lol.  I KNOW all of these things, it's just kicking my ass in gear and getting it done!  I just can't seem to find the motivation no matter how hard I try to commit myself.  I've joined an online diet site called extrapounds.com.  If you are trying to lose weight, I highly recommend them!  It's an excellent support site!  Even Jayson has talked about going on this detox with me to see if it does him any good.  He's also decided to quit smoking with me!  I'm excited about that!

     Alex and Leland are doing well!  Alex won't be able to attend school next week basicaly because we don't have the gas to get her back into town.  It's sad but that's the way it is.  I need to call both of their doctors next week and schedule appnts.  Alex needs her flu shot and Leland needs to get in for his 4 mos wellness visit and shots..joy!  I also need to get Alex in to the dentist.  She has a hole in her lower right moler and also one in the top right molar.  It's difficult to watch her go thru toothaches at such a young age.  Her daddy and I could both tell her all about those!  I need to make an appnt myself for the dentist.  All they are basicaly going to do is give me a referral to an oral surgeon becuase I need sooo much work done.  I have A LOT of cavities and basic break down off all my teeth.  Alex took so much of my calcium when I was pregnant with her, that my teeth have become very brittle and unfortunatly that means they are breaking off very easily.  The dentists I've talked to assure me this is more common than I would think.  Mine is a severe case.  My childhood battles with gingevitus didn't help the situation.  Now it has turned into a full blown case of severe periodontal disease.  Mostly caused from my severe calcium deficiancy during my pregnancy with Alex.  It sucks but when it comes down to it, I'm probably going to have to have 90% of them cut out and get dentures.  I would love to get surgicaly implanted permanent replacement teeth, but that's quite costly.  Upwards of 10 grand I think! YIKES!  I will do just fine with dentures, no one will even be able to tell I have them, unless I tell them of course.  At this point I'm willing to do anything to get away from all this tooth pain I have almost constantly.  It's so dangerous to have all this infection so close to my brain!

     I'll keep you, my faithfull readers, all posted on my detox success!  Please feel free to comment or ask any questions you may have during this time!  Next week my online visits will be further and fewer inbetween.  As I start my new job and have to put that first.  Sleep will def be a necessity at that time!  I will however be online for sure at least once a week, probably Fridays!  Thanks for stopping by!