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Today I had a "reflective" moment. A moment where if felt like my whole life was a sham. I feel like every time I think we're pulling ahead everything falls apart.
We have to move next month and we haven't even started LOOKING for a place. Houses around here, especially 3 bedroom ones, are few and far between. We're on a waiting list for some apartments back in Hannibal but I'm hesitent about moving back there. I really don't want Alex going to school there, plain and simple. It's a hard city and a hard school. Not academicaly but it's basicaly like an inner city school. I want to send my kid to school in the morning at least half ass trusting she won't get shot while she's there.
It's felt here lately like everything is falling down around us and no matter how hard we work, it's all for nothing. We always end up losing everything. Right now, we're making payments on our furniture and computer and w&d. Basicaly bc these are very expensive items and we can't very well afford to just go out and buy them. Well, the place called today and they want a post dated check for $539 by yesterday at 5pm enable to for us to keep our stuff. Needless to say, we didn't make it. First we don't buy checks (dh has issues with writing bad ones) second we have no money for gas to drive 41 miles to get the check (if we had one) to them. So we're sunk, literally. They'll be here tomorrow to pick it all up. Looks like we're back to lawn furniture for awhile. Sucks but what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger right?
We are making plans to move to S.Illinois when Alex gets out of school for the summer. There are a couple reasons for this but mainly it's because I used to live there when I was in HS and I really liked it. Jay gets paid Friday so that will be a 
relief. It sucks that I made a mistake in our check book so we went over by about $30. They charge $20 PER overage (there were 3) and $6 a day that it's in the red. So all together its going to come up to like $136! Then Jays medicare is taking out $186. THEN we owe my gma $117. Alex needs winter clothes BAD. I found a great deal online for some her size so I think we'll be ok there. And thank God for Jeanne, holding those baby clothes for bubba! (thanks again girl!) So at least the kids will have enough clothes to last thru the winter! That's all I'm concerned with!
Alexs bday is Nov 21st. This new job I was supposed to have started yesterday called. They apparently found out I was living in Shelbina. Which is like 40 miles away from Hannibal and they decided that they wanted to withdrawal their offer of employment. Said it wasn't fair to ask me to drive so far for a job with the rise in gas prices. I was pretty peaved about that! I mean, it's my gas cost! Let me decide if I'm willing to drive that far! So it's back to putting in apps for me! Gotta go house hunting first though right? We might just crash with my gma for the month of nov. Just until we can get on our feet a little better for Dec. I don't know how she'll perseve that but it's worth a try to get some money saved up.
~Sorry guys didn't mean to drag this out 
Just had some stuff to get off my chest! Thanx ya'll for listening!
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