So if I sometimes mention being "here", it means my house lol!  Just thought I'd clarify!

Written in my journal Thursday Nov 29th -  Today & last night are both major improvements from the way things have been.  I don't know if my gma or Jayson got ahold of my notebook & read what I wrote or what.  All I know is that overall attitudes have been vastly different.  The whole house has been very "happy".  Even Leland seems to be a happier more peacefull baby.  Alex of course is as irritating as ever!  Really drives me nuts sometimes.  She is so demanding and down right mean somedays..but that's just part of her charm I guess. LOL! 

     Gma & I stayed up last night talking about different options for the dental procedures I need done.  She knows of a place in KC that basis charges on your income!  Sounds great to me!  I know I'm seriously getting tired of having tooth ache pain all the time!  I'd rather go thru labor then deal with this agonizing pain!  It's ridiculous!  Nothing I do anymore seems to work.  I'm on a constant dose of anitibiotics & pain killers.  It's starting to do a number on my stomach.  My gums are constantly swollen.

     Jayson & I went looking at houses last week.  We found several on a rent to own basis.  We're going to set up a time next week to go look at them.  I'm hoping we can work something out to pay the deposit in installments and just not move in until it's paid.  It's probably the only chance we will ever have to own our own house.  Lord knows we'll never be able to get a home loan with our credit!  I think if we're given the opportunity we should take it!

Written this morning Saturday Dec. 1st - Well what turned out to be a pretty happy day all around yesterday, turned into a night from hell!  Bub fell asleep after his bath around 6:30 last night, which is pretty early for him.  He was back up around 1:30 with a runny nose, and just feeling misearable.  He wasn't fussy though.  Just wanted to talk & play.  So I decided to give him one of his breathing treatments for his congestion.  After that there was no sleep for me!  I was up with that bubbling, bundle of joy all night long!  He was so full of energy!  I tried everything, and finally I just gave up and got stuck being nominated to stay up all night!

     Then this morning when Jayson woke up I finally was able to go PEE!!  After that I figured daddy could handle him long enough for me to clean up the bedroom a bit.  Making the bed and all that jazz.  What does he do?  Puts Leland in his bouncy seat and goes out to smoke!  Then when he comes in, he has the nerve to come back to the bedroom where I'm cleaning and askes if I want him to bring the baby in there with me!!  I was like, sure, what the hell!  I've only been up with him all night while ya'll was asleep!

     Now he's in the bedroom laying on my freshly made bed watching cartoons with Alex while Leland is out here in his bouncy seat with me!  Sure he's just gabbling away not bothering a soul but I guess that's not the point.  I'm so ready to throw in the towel on this day.  Been called on account of rain!  something!  Weekend can be over anyday now!  Monday is finally payday!  Feels like it's been forever!  First it was flying buy because of all the moving.  this last week has slowed to a crawl!

     I'm a little concerned about xmas next month, with the inlaws refusing to stick to our dollar limit.  Since they won't, I'm quite sure no one else in Jays family will fell they should have to either.  I shouldn't be worried about it, after all they DO have TWO more grandkids to buy for this year.  Jays brother just had a baby a few months before Leland was born and come to think of it, my other BIL is with a girl now who has a little boy Alexs age, so that's technicaly 3 more kids to buy for this year!  Am I wrong for not wanting my kids to base their relationship with their grandparents on how much money they spend on them?  I mean they won't even let us continue the illusion that "their" gifts are from santa.  They insist on telling her where "their" gifts came from.  Irritates me so bad!  It's like they aren't about to let some fictional character get the credit for gifts that GRANDPA bought.  Last year when they done that she virtually ignored everything that "santa" got her.  I mean it's like they do it on purpose just to over shadow us for some reason.  I mean she's FIVE!  Let her believe that it all comes from santa for crying out loud!  It's not a contest of wills here!  They spend well over $400 on just HER last year!  It was ridiculous!  What's worse is they took her to the toy store and let her pick everything out herself.  I mean that just totally defeated our purpose in keeping her believing in santa.  Especially when she comes home saying that GRANDPA told her there isn't a such thing as santa!  That's not his place to tell her that!  I wanted to scream!  Guess I'll just burn that bridge when we get to it this year.  No sense worrying over it now!

     Well bloggers guess I'll get out of here for now!  It's been a hell of a real week!